Dear God, this past week was spent mostly in agony from my mind running constantly and not giving me any peace. So much so that it was giving me headaches, more stress, and anxiety. I was wishing so hard that You had given me an on/off switch for my brain to control my thoughts running away with me. So Friday morning I had enough. I snapped from all the anxiety and decided that me and Lestat would run away for half of the weekend. After work I came home and packed us a bag and we left. We got a hotel for the night, went swimming in the indoor pool, went out for his dinner and I ordered Dominoes for the first time in over a year! So they delivered and we were having a blast eating, watching cable tv and having pillow fights! He eventually fell asleep and I stayed up watching (more!) tv. What can I say? We don't have cable! It was so nice to be able to relax and not think! In the morning Lestat woke me up and watched cartoons for a bit then we went to the lobby and had a hot breakfast, then we went and swam again and then got ready to check out. I coincidentally packed us both our Popeye the Sailorman shirts haha so we matched all day Saturday. After we left the hotel we went for a walk with his new wagon, then went shopping and then decided to take the drive to Iowa City and spend the day downtown! So off we went, holding hands and jammin out! In Iowa City downtown there are so many interesting shops to look in, lots of sculptures, and a playground in the square! So while Lestat ran around playing I took pictures and just people watched. I even had a grandpa playing with his grandson ask me how old Lestat was and I said "He just turned 5." and this guy was all smiles and said "He will always be the happiest child." I smiled back and said "I know, he already is!" It was so fun just having an easygoing, relaxing time! We went to lunch at a new place then drove to Coral Ridge Mall (it's ginormous!) We rode the carousel a couple times, did some shopping, and watched people ice skate. I definitely needed this break to just be with him because when I'm alone with him I get brought down to his level of simple, happy, loving, fun nature! My brain slows down ENTIRELY and it's just me and him,
nothing else matters. So on our drive home after such a nice fun filled night and day he fell asleep holding my hand. It was then that I realized that You did give me an on/off switch for my brain.
It's Lestat. He is the only thing that truly calms my chaotic mind when I'm losing it. (Combine him with any body of water and I'm totally calm lol good thing he loves water as much as I do) My love for him and his love for me overpowers every negative thought that had been plaguing me. I hope to be the most amazing mother for him every single day but sometimes I think its me who needs him most... I would be so lost and alone without this special boy. But then I think that he needs me just as much. Because nobody will ever love him the way that I do. We just belong together.
You can't have one without the other. So thank you God for giving me an angel and in turn knowing that I was the mother he needed. He saves me from myself and I will cherish every blessed, perfect moment that I share with him.
Here are pictures of our adventure!
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| My sweet angel |
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| Picture of Mom |
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| Runaways! |
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| Definitely a Shepherd... |
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| tv.... |
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| he loved it! |
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| Sleep tight my little llama |
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| Delivery from Dominoes!!!! |
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| Night Night |
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| Matching! |
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| should've bought this... |
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| Stop moving! |
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| I'm gonna run in 5, 4, 3,2... |
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| Crazy climber |
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| Yes I want fries with that! lol |
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| Takin my purse for a walk around the square |
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| UP HIGH! |
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| I don't get it... |
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| Aaaah! |
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| Monkey child! |
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| All done! |
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| Big boy! |
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| So cute! |
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| He loves it! |
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| Silly! |
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| Fun! |
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| Giddyup! |
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| Almost flippin off the zebra behind him lol |
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| Ridin the jaguar! |
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| Handsome Boy! |
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| Mom riding with me! |
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| I'm winning! |
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| Up and Down Again |
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| Whee! |
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| Cruisin! |
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| Just chillin with Stuart Little |
